Moving on - Chapter 2

Its been 3 months since i have decided to move on in my life. And right now..there is this girl whom i have taken a liking to. She has ignored my sms and whatsapp before...and there were suggestions that i should give up as they feel she is simply not interested in me...That she only sees me as a colleague and not someone whom she is willing to develop a relationship with...Someone has kindly sounded her out and while she is unwilling to comment on how she sees me (me and that person is quite close, so she might have suspected something), there's nothing negative in it at all...In fact, it seems encouraging to go after her again...I do not know if i am lying to myself or not...but there are many times which i myself didnt reply to messages (Eddery will be the best proof to it) and on most occasions..i didnt reply not because i dun like to, but rather i dun see the need to..I kept observing her reactions to me, it seems very conflicting..sometimes she is simply so sweet and cute..but other times she seemed kinda cold and resistant to me..And its obvious that the way she talks to me is different from the others..she's much more sweeter and smiling while talking to me...I admit i might have been too aggressive from the start which might had put her off...that now i am still fearful of sending her messages as i am scared she wouldnt reply and she would ignore me & give me the cold treatment like the previous times...What should i do? And how should i go about doing it?...

Its time to move on....

After 2 1/2 years...i have decided to move on....it hurts a lot...especially being hurt by someone i love so deeply...tat somehow for my sake she cant give up her demand for a boyfriend with master degree...maybe on my part its a bit of naivety...tat i tried all sorts and means to change her mentality to no avail...tat i did promised her no matter wat i would respect her decision...

I thought tat my sincerity & faithfulness & care & concern & conviction towards her will move her...i never once thought if its worth doing all these...tat its seems so natural to be nice to the person i love...i dun doubt her love for me...its her willingness to be with me tat i am in doubt....which affected my sense of security & to some extent my confidence in myself...she means the world to me...and now it has collaspe...

I dun want to ask myself if i should had delayed the inevitable...tat i could have waited until i get my ASP before confronting her...by then maybe she might have a change of heart...but knowing myself...i know i will not...

Wat luke says makes sense...probably i am too angry or too harsh in my tone tat she's so unwilling to compromise or let me know her point of view....but all these while me & her talked without communicating...i cant go out with her...i cant let other people know of my relationship with her....i cant hold her hands....i cant talk about our future together & i cant mention when she finally can accept me or when can we be together....then tell me wat can i do?

I wish her all the best in her future...i will try to recover from this setback...and probably from my point of view...the main reason why the ending is like tat is because i give in too much into the relationship....i will learn from it...