Hong Kong...Here i come...

40 mins more to boarding the plane. "Botak Teo" misplaced his passport after checking in the luggage....but luckily in the end still managed to find it...i am yearning for the dim sum, roasted geese as well as the seaf0od....think it would be a fun and enjoyable trip..



I did write her a letter...and i wrote half of what i thought i wanted to say...maybe half-hoping she can figure out what the other unwritten stuffs meant. I thought it was quite clear, but she called me and asked me 'what do i want to achieve by giving her the letter?' I think she could tell that i am avoiding to give her a direct reply. What really hurts me was that she said ' (we are only) colleagues are just to have a working relationship, if we can talk then we talk. Colleagues do not need to endure / accept your temper, unlike your friends'... Really, after knowing each other for one year plus, after we get from the mutual dislike of each other to being able to chat on the phone, and go out with others for dinner....we are just colleagues...and more so 'disposable' colleagues.... And i didnt do anything in front of her or to hurt her...i did lost my temper before, but its not in front of her....to condemn me because of one small error and to choose to ignore other things that i had done...i am really very disapointed and sad...

Looks like i made a good decision in going for the vacation...escaping from the harsh reality...

to say or not to say....

18 more days to go...there's something i badly wanted to ask...something i really wanted to say..something i desperately wanted to clarify...for what, i dont know....maybe just plain curiousity to make certain things clear, perhaps just to have a conclusion....if i say, got consequences; if i dont say, got regret...i am at a lost....

A big dilemma....to go or not to go.....

A colleague "botak teo" asked me if i want to go overseas for a short vacation where he can bring me around the area. The price, which includes the flight (normal airline) and a five-star hotel stay for 4 nights, is really very appealing and tempting. And actually i wanted to go this country last year, but i wasnt too sure of how to get around as the MRT doesnt go to all the places i want to go, so i choose Taipei instead....This time round, someone whom is interesting and whom i can communicate well with and knows the place well can bring me around.....but the catch is that the package offer lasts only till the end of this month, and he intended to leave around 2 weeks plus..which somehow seems a bit rushing for me... I had checked with my superior and my parents, whom gave me the green light to go if i want to...And to me thats a difficult question to answer..

Some of the stuffs to ponder....To me, 3 weeks is more than enough to prepare myself for a trip. I planned one month in advance for the Taipei trip and for Bangkok is roughly about 3 weeks plus...Someone would be covering my work....(she might be grumbling about this though)....and there's a big uncertainty if she would be posted out soon...(i dont know if i hope for her to be posted out... sometimes yes, sometimes no... i do hope for someone else to post out asap though..)..Expenditure wise should be okay...And i really need a break..i am very tried about certain things in my workplace (the relationships are less complicated in the past, and that we wouldnt go to work the next day to realise that people are falling out with one another because of certain mis-understandings and the worst thing is that it cannot be mended (i guess in some aspect i contributed to this as well)....i told "snowman" before..i am very afraid that me & her would fall out...)...And there's nothing better than to go overseas for a vacation...

I have to give a reply to 'botak teo' by tomorrow...i think i already have a decision...its just that i need some courage to ascertain that my decision is the right one....