Anniversary Night

　“暧昧让人受尽委屈，找不到相爱的证据，何时该前进，何时该放弃，连拥抱都没有勇气”...This is the song which got the Karaoke champion....

Yesterday was the anniversary night of my company which was held in a multi-purpose hall, which i find most fun & though provoking was the karaoke competition. Maybe to some people, the whole event seems to be quite boring & a waste of time, but not to me. I am glad that i attended it....because you will only enjoy it if and only if you allow yourself to enjoy it.

Initially the signing-up of the karaoke competition was quite lukewarm, to the extent that the organisers have to resort to arrowing people for it. At the end of it, i realised that its not that they cant sing, its just that they think that they have no courage to sing in front of an audience...

After the event ended, we were told that we have 30 mins more to sing before the contractors keep the barang barang... and at that time, there wasnt many of us left. So when someone got started to sing, the song request keeps coming....and i am sure those who stayed behind really enjoyed the 30 mins...

Those words of encouragement which i said to my colleague to calm her nerves before her turn to sing really got me thinking. How is it that i can encourage people so easily but not myself? Why is it that i still dont have the courage to do certain things even though i know its not that difficult a task?...And that it doesnt matter what the outcome would be, because you already succeed as long as you are willing to give it a try...And i am not just referring to the karaoke competition...I am referring to my greatest fear, which this thing to many people its so natural, so easy, so enjoyable...but to me this fear keeps lingering...maybe i really complicate matters by thinking too much...

"Northeast Line": You still owe me a "为你我受冷风吹"...haha..

Happy Valentine Day....

Just 4 more days to that day...that day which i really believe its over-hype...that day which probably creates the biggest divide / segregation over the have & the have-nots...

I am thinking of buying gift, but somehow i really dont have a clue what i should get. Like what 'cheekbone' told me, 'if that person likes you, even if you just give her a handmade gift, she will like' . Very true... but somehow giving a person a gift on v-day doesnt neccessary equate to liking her rite...it could plainly be some platonic friendship...('jade orchid' strongly disputes this point though...)...hopefully not all girls feel that way..

Finally the cold war ended... yeah...looks like i am right to give myself and others a 2 weeks cooling off period.....

Someone asked me this question via sms' why suddenly we will have constant messages?...Sorry i getting afraid as i do not know why. I afraid that one day you will just go mia, we will be like strangers when we see each other'... I really dont know what gave her this insecurity or this doubt...And after i replied her, i get a feeling that she is distancing herself from me...This is so similar to what happened between me and 'instant mee'...a feeling of nostalgic...i really dont want that incident to happen again....but i guess it will happen...but this time, i am sure i know how to handle this...

Happy Valentine Day!