This song is for a particular person. I got it from yahoo.hk. I really hope she will have a clearer idea of the road ahead from the lyrics of this song.
這就是愛嗎
歌手：容祖兒
作曲：林俊傑
填詞：林秋離, 王雅君
編曲：蔡政勳, 陳建瑋
你確定這就是愛嗎
真的愛我嗎
手牽著手漫步斜陽
就當作浪漫
兩個人眺望遠方
以爲愛的晴朗
當我回頭望
卻 已淚濕了眼眶
當夕陽變成星光
當愛情換了方向
你一如過往 對愛太緊張
但未來又會怎樣
未知的明天總讓我徬徨
誰給我力量
我不怕你 愛不愛我
只害怕你 以為愛我
抓緊我 不算擁有
你總學不會放手
我不怕你 不懂愛我
只怕你 把習慣 當作愛
你猜不透
我要什麼
喔 你猜不透 我要什麼
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
D & D
The D & D for this year would be held on this sat, and before yesterday, the thought of going for this D & D fills me with excitement & anticipation. Especially so when there are so many of my colleagues going, and that i missed out on the last year one. I havent decided whether i want to buy any new clothes for it, the pants that i like is $103, and that the shirt is $69. A bit ex i feel, but i think i would look nice in it.
But what happened yesterday sort of spoiled my mood. I had a row with my table i/c over nothing, and i had voiced out whatever i shouldnt have said (i dont know if he heard it). What i had said is true, but certain things are better left unsaid, which is why i feel quite apologetic about revealing them.
I was more concerned about this 2nd thing though. Another person who is in the same table sms me this conclusion to whatever happened between me & her, "...cheat my feelings. Dun frd alr.Bye" I dont know if she was joking or what... I really hope she is...
But what happened yesterday sort of spoiled my mood. I had a row with my table i/c over nothing, and i had voiced out whatever i shouldnt have said (i dont know if he heard it). What i had said is true, but certain things are better left unsaid, which is why i feel quite apologetic about revealing them.
I was more concerned about this 2nd thing though. Another person who is in the same table sms me this conclusion to whatever happened between me & her, "...cheat my feelings. Dun frd alr.Bye" I dont know if she was joking or what... I really hope she is...
Friday, October 23, 2009
Wedding invitation....
No, its not me getting married. 'Cheekbone' is. 2 days later. First time i received a wedding invitation via email. Really very happy for her that she has found that special person to be with for the rest of her life.
Just saw on 'strawberry's' blog that she has gotten married last week. What's quite surprising to me was that she didnt invite me to her wedding. And i thought that we were quite close during uni days. And i thought that i knew her boyfriend (now husband), and that we had went out many times together, and we met up like 3 months back..2 ex-colleagues of mine who had posted out from my work-place will be getting married (separately) in the next couple of weeks and they had invitated quite a lot of my colleagues here..but not me... WHY? Is it that they dont like me, or that they think i wouldnt go, or .....they had forgotten the existence on me....
Just saw on 'strawberry's' blog that she has gotten married last week. What's quite surprising to me was that she didnt invite me to her wedding. And i thought that we were quite close during uni days. And i thought that i knew her boyfriend (now husband), and that we had went out many times together, and we met up like 3 months back..2 ex-colleagues of mine who had posted out from my work-place will be getting married (separately) in the next couple of weeks and they had invitated quite a lot of my colleagues here..but not me... WHY? Is it that they dont like me, or that they think i wouldnt go, or .....they had forgotten the existence on me....
Friday, August 28, 2009
I cant think of an appropriate title..
I made someone angry last night. A comment which made her feel hurt and upset that she felt like crying. I really dont know how i have this "ability" to hurt someone so badly with just a sentence. Luckily she is magnaminous to forgive me after i apologise, otherwise the friendship would be gone. Was thinking...if i know how to irritate people with just one sentence, why dont i know how to make people happy in just one sentence....
Saturday, August 8, 2009
H1N1...
I had a high fever last week saturday night, fluctuating between 38.2 and 38.8 degrees. So i went to see the MO, got 7 days MC. And by the next morning, it jumped to 39.5. I had never experienced such a high temperature before, and the symptoms really seems like H1N1. My joints are in pain, i have a cough, and i had been in contact with a few fever patients the past few days. I sms 'cheekbone' asking her to help me find out the guidelines what i should do if the fever persists. I guess hearing her words of encouragement and her sweet voice made me feel much better. And by the next day, my fever is gone. But i am still feeling very weak and drowsy. Luckily I still have 5 more days of MC, so can have a good rest before going back to work.
I really thought that there's still a lot of things for me to do, for me to experience, for me to discover. The past no longer seems important, those wrong things that i had done before seems so minor and insignificant. From then on, i realised that once i recover, i am going to do all the things which in the past i had dwelled too long on, and did not have the courage to even try. Basically, i am going to live my life again.
Thanks to H1N1 and the high fever for bring me to my senses..CHEERS!
I really thought that there's still a lot of things for me to do, for me to experience, for me to discover. The past no longer seems important, those wrong things that i had done before seems so minor and insignificant. From then on, i realised that once i recover, i am going to do all the things which in the past i had dwelled too long on, and did not have the courage to even try. Basically, i am going to live my life again.
Thanks to H1N1 and the high fever for bring me to my senses..CHEERS!
Thursday, July 9, 2009
我的主题曲
我真的很喜欢看超级星光大道，因为觉得这节目最大的感动度是它的人性化和制作组的用心。它不会去太在意收视率如何，它也不需要观众帖钱进去维持参赛选手的进展，搞到好像被淘汰的不是因为他们表演得不够好，而是因为支持他们的粉丝扔的钱不够多。超级星光大道的选手们，如林宥嘉，梁文音，赖铭伟，徐佳莹，方宥心，张心杰，都能看到他们的蜕变和成长，他们付出的努力和心酸，他们的不锲和对音乐的执著，我想是该节目最大的卖点。
星光5里有个两个单元让我很感动，就是要指定参赛选手唱他们的主题曲，和他们想对某某人说的话。有些的故事很感人。 如果是我，我选的会根徐泳琳的一样，就是一首很sad的歌：莫文蔚的‘爱’。就是觉得每句歌词，esp chorus 那部分很贴近我的感触和心情。。。因为我会想起你，我害怕面对自己，我的意志总被寂寞吞食，因为你总会提醒，过去总不会过去，有种真爱不是我的。。。假如我不曾爱你，我不会失去自己，想念的刺，钉住我的位置，因为你总会提醒，尽管我得到世界，有些幸福不是我的。。。
星光5里有个两个单元让我很感动，就是要指定参赛选手唱他们的主题曲，和他们想对某某人说的话。有些的故事很感人。 如果是我，我选的会根徐泳琳的一样，就是一首很sad的歌：莫文蔚的‘爱’。就是觉得每句歌词，esp chorus 那部分很贴近我的感触和心情。。。因为我会想起你，我害怕面对自己，我的意志总被寂寞吞食，因为你总会提醒，过去总不会过去，有种真爱不是我的。。。假如我不曾爱你，我不会失去自己，想念的刺，钉住我的位置，因为你总会提醒，尽管我得到世界，有些幸福不是我的。。。
Thursday, June 25, 2009
The difficulty of meeting-up
I received an unexpected call from 'strawberry' a few days back. And she proposed a meet-up the next day which i am also free. Its like so long that we havent meet up, & just all of a sudden we are going to meet the following day. The feeling is quite surreal..I had been visiting her blog ever since we left school and i thought she wanted to meet me to pass me her wedding invitation card. But she didnt. Nevertheless we had a good chat and i am looking forward to meeting her again.
Compared that with someone who has been asking me when i am free & after i told him my off days, he said would get back to me. But he NEVER. Sometimes i am wondering if he's real busy or that the sms is just a way of keeping in contact without any real aim or meaning. I should add that i appreciate him for taking the effort to try to arrange a meet-up though....
I know how hard and difficult it's to arrange a gathering. I asked 'Apple' out on her day off for 2 consecutive weeks and she told me that she's feeling too tired to go cycling. This I can understand. But this doesnt reduce any of my disappointment...
The 3 friends above whom i have mentioned, i really thought we got along very well, especially during various stages of my life. Hence i really cherish a lot of our friendship. But somehow, it seems that its possible that friendship can end peacefully...Something which i dont want to see, but i have no idea how to sustain the friendship...
Compared that with someone who has been asking me when i am free & after i told him my off days, he said would get back to me. But he NEVER. Sometimes i am wondering if he's real busy or that the sms is just a way of keeping in contact without any real aim or meaning. I should add that i appreciate him for taking the effort to try to arrange a meet-up though....
I know how hard and difficult it's to arrange a gathering. I asked 'Apple' out on her day off for 2 consecutive weeks and she told me that she's feeling too tired to go cycling. This I can understand. But this doesnt reduce any of my disappointment...
The 3 friends above whom i have mentioned, i really thought we got along very well, especially during various stages of my life. Hence i really cherish a lot of our friendship. But somehow, it seems that its possible that friendship can end peacefully...Something which i dont want to see, but i have no idea how to sustain the friendship...
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
The importance of communication...
I was on the bus just now and overheard a girl lamenting to her friend about how bad her boyfriend is...How he failed to catch her hints, how many times she has reminded him to take leave to go for an overseas trip, how much he likes gaming instead of going out with her, why he didnt bother to call her every now and then to show concern about her, why he always cancel dates and appointments with her at the last minute, why he didnt care about her feelings...And that all these problems are making her school work very depressing and tedious..not only affecting her mood and also her relationships with her friends as they have to bear with her temper....And her friend was quite quiet throughout, preferring to let the 'victim' vent her frustrations...
"Apple" taught me one very important thing. Guys always make this mistake of seeking their male friends opinions when they have doubts on how to handle a relationship with her girl. 'Why dont they just approach the girl's female friends, who knows more about her and can give better suggestions?' ...Maybe if that girl on that bus had confided in any male friend, she would have known what was wrong in that relationship. Or that probably, she is just finding an avenue to vent her frustrations and hoping that her friend (and me, unwittingly of course) would lend a ear....
Before i dropped off at Toa Payoh ( I was on Bus 151), I heard her admitting that she's 'emotionally high maintainence'...which brings to mind a friend who told me that she's 'financially low maintainence and emotionally high maintainence'..But this friend of mine has been happily attached to her boyfriend for 5 years and counting...I dont know how long this poor girl on the bus will last though...but maybe they arent suitable to be together at all...because obviously there is a big big communication problem between the two of them...
And thats why the importance of communication cannot be downplayed. I am still learning and trying to communicate effectively with people....but its never easy. Everybody has different personality, character and thinkings...its really a challenge...
"Apple" taught me one very important thing. Guys always make this mistake of seeking their male friends opinions when they have doubts on how to handle a relationship with her girl. 'Why dont they just approach the girl's female friends, who knows more about her and can give better suggestions?' ...Maybe if that girl on that bus had confided in any male friend, she would have known what was wrong in that relationship. Or that probably, she is just finding an avenue to vent her frustrations and hoping that her friend (and me, unwittingly of course) would lend a ear....
Before i dropped off at Toa Payoh ( I was on Bus 151), I heard her admitting that she's 'emotionally high maintainence'...which brings to mind a friend who told me that she's 'financially low maintainence and emotionally high maintainence'..But this friend of mine has been happily attached to her boyfriend for 5 years and counting...I dont know how long this poor girl on the bus will last though...but maybe they arent suitable to be together at all...because obviously there is a big big communication problem between the two of them...
And thats why the importance of communication cannot be downplayed. I am still learning and trying to communicate effectively with people....but its never easy. Everybody has different personality, character and thinkings...its really a challenge...
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
A dream...got loopholes....but does it mean anything?...
Last night, i had a dream. Surprisingly the storyline still remains very clear after i woke up. Here it goes...
I was at Ang Mo Kio with a JC friend (i had lost touch with him for a long long time) looking for the MRT station, intending to go to Somerset MRT . It was around 1 plus in the afternoon (I checked my watch at that time). I had asked a female colleague out for lunch at Wisma Atria, where we would meet at the MRT station at 2pm (not including the JC friend of course, me and her only). And then after, we would attend a meeting around the area at 3pm. So naturally, i was quite happy to meet her for lunch....But as time passes, my JC friend and i couldnt find the MRT station (This always happen in my dreams...i can never find places or reach destinations on time)..so i got rather panicky and called my colleague that i couldnt meet her for lunch and that we would meet again another day.... And then i woke up....
This storyline seems reasonable...but there's at least 4 loopholes...No 1. I dont store her phone number in my handphone, so how can i contact her? No 2. If i am going to meet her for lunch and also being very excited about it, then why am i still doing in Ang Mo Kio at 1 plus? No 3. If i am going to Wisma Atria with her, then why did I want to drop at Somerset instead of Orchard MRT?....No.4...She's my colleague, so its near-impossible that we would need to attend a meeting at Orchard together....
What does this dream reveal?...I have no idea...
I was at Ang Mo Kio with a JC friend (i had lost touch with him for a long long time) looking for the MRT station, intending to go to Somerset MRT . It was around 1 plus in the afternoon (I checked my watch at that time). I had asked a female colleague out for lunch at Wisma Atria, where we would meet at the MRT station at 2pm (not including the JC friend of course, me and her only). And then after, we would attend a meeting around the area at 3pm. So naturally, i was quite happy to meet her for lunch....But as time passes, my JC friend and i couldnt find the MRT station (This always happen in my dreams...i can never find places or reach destinations on time)..so i got rather panicky and called my colleague that i couldnt meet her for lunch and that we would meet again another day.... And then i woke up....
This storyline seems reasonable...but there's at least 4 loopholes...No 1. I dont store her phone number in my handphone, so how can i contact her? No 2. If i am going to meet her for lunch and also being very excited about it, then why am i still doing in Ang Mo Kio at 1 plus? No 3. If i am going to Wisma Atria with her, then why did I want to drop at Somerset instead of Orchard MRT?....No.4...She's my colleague, so its near-impossible that we would need to attend a meeting at Orchard together....
What does this dream reveal?...I have no idea...
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Hong Kong...Here i come...
40 mins more to boarding the plane. "Botak Teo" misplaced his passport after checking in the luggage....but luckily in the end still managed to find it...i am yearning for the dim sum, roasted geese as well as the seaf0od....think it would be a fun and enjoyable trip..
I did write her a letter...and i wrote half of what i thought i wanted to say...maybe half-hoping she can figure out what the other unwritten stuffs meant. I thought it was quite clear, but she called me and asked me 'what do i want to achieve by giving her the letter?' I think she could tell that i am avoiding to give her a direct reply. What really hurts me was that she said ' (we are only) colleagues are just to have a working relationship, if we can talk then we talk. Colleagues do not need to endure / accept your temper, unlike your friends'... Really, after knowing each other for one year plus, after we get from the mutual dislike of each other to being able to chat on the phone, and go out with others for dinner....we are just colleagues...and more so 'disposable' colleagues.... And i didnt do anything in front of her or to hurt her...i did lost my temper before, but its not in front of her....to condemn me because of one small error and to choose to ignore other things that i had done...i am really very disapointed and sad...
Looks like i made a good decision in going for the vacation...escaping from the harsh reality...
I did write her a letter...and i wrote half of what i thought i wanted to say...maybe half-hoping she can figure out what the other unwritten stuffs meant. I thought it was quite clear, but she called me and asked me 'what do i want to achieve by giving her the letter?' I think she could tell that i am avoiding to give her a direct reply. What really hurts me was that she said ' (we are only) colleagues are just to have a working relationship, if we can talk then we talk. Colleagues do not need to endure / accept your temper, unlike your friends'... Really, after knowing each other for one year plus, after we get from the mutual dislike of each other to being able to chat on the phone, and go out with others for dinner....we are just colleagues...and more so 'disposable' colleagues.... And i didnt do anything in front of her or to hurt her...i did lost my temper before, but its not in front of her....to condemn me because of one small error and to choose to ignore other things that i had done...i am really very disapointed and sad...
Looks like i made a good decision in going for the vacation...escaping from the harsh reality...
Friday, March 13, 2009
to say or not to say....
18 more days to go...there's something i badly wanted to ask...something i really wanted to say..something i desperately wanted to clarify...for what, i dont know....maybe just plain curiousity to make certain things clear, perhaps just to have a conclusion....if i say, got consequences; if i dont say, got regret...i am at a lost....
Friday, March 6, 2009
A big dilemma....to go or not to go.....
A colleague "botak teo" asked me if i want to go overseas for a short vacation where he can bring me around the area. The price, which includes the flight (normal airline) and a five-star hotel stay for 4 nights, is really very appealing and tempting. And actually i wanted to go this country last year, but i wasnt too sure of how to get around as the MRT doesnt go to all the places i want to go, so i choose Taipei instead....This time round, someone whom is interesting and whom i can communicate well with and knows the place well can bring me around.....but the catch is that the package offer lasts only till the end of this month, and he intended to leave around 2 weeks plus..which somehow seems a bit rushing for me... I had checked with my superior and my parents, whom gave me the green light to go if i want to...And to me thats a difficult question to answer..
Some of the stuffs to ponder....To me, 3 weeks is more than enough to prepare myself for a trip. I planned one month in advance for the Taipei trip and for Bangkok is roughly about 3 weeks plus...Someone would be covering my work....(she might be grumbling about this though)....and there's a big uncertainty if she would be posted out soon...(i dont know if i hope for her to be posted out... sometimes yes, sometimes no... i do hope for someone else to post out asap though..)..Expenditure wise should be okay...And i really need a break..i am very tried about certain things in my workplace (the relationships are less complicated in the past, and that we wouldnt go to work the next day to realise that people are falling out with one another because of certain mis-understandings and the worst thing is that it cannot be mended (i guess in some aspect i contributed to this as well)....i told "snowman" before..i am very afraid that me & her would fall out...)...And there's nothing better than to go overseas for a vacation...
I have to give a reply to 'botak teo' by tomorrow...i think i already have a decision...its just that i need some courage to ascertain that my decision is the right one....
Some of the stuffs to ponder....To me, 3 weeks is more than enough to prepare myself for a trip. I planned one month in advance for the Taipei trip and for Bangkok is roughly about 3 weeks plus...Someone would be covering my work....(she might be grumbling about this though)....and there's a big uncertainty if she would be posted out soon...(i dont know if i hope for her to be posted out... sometimes yes, sometimes no... i do hope for someone else to post out asap though..)..Expenditure wise should be okay...And i really need a break..i am very tried about certain things in my workplace (the relationships are less complicated in the past, and that we wouldnt go to work the next day to realise that people are falling out with one another because of certain mis-understandings and the worst thing is that it cannot be mended (i guess in some aspect i contributed to this as well)....i told "snowman" before..i am very afraid that me & her would fall out...)...And there's nothing better than to go overseas for a vacation...
I have to give a reply to 'botak teo' by tomorrow...i think i already have a decision...its just that i need some courage to ascertain that my decision is the right one....
Friday, February 13, 2009
Anniversary Night
“暧昧让人受尽委屈，找不到相爱的证据，何时该前进，何时该放弃，连拥抱都没有勇气”...This is the song which got the Karaoke champion....
Yesterday was the anniversary night of my company which was held in a multi-purpose hall, which i find most fun & though provoking was the karaoke competition. Maybe to some people, the whole event seems to be quite boring & a waste of time, but not to me. I am glad that i attended it....because you will only enjoy it if and only if you allow yourself to enjoy it.
Initially the signing-up of the karaoke competition was quite lukewarm, to the extent that the organisers have to resort to arrowing people for it. At the end of it, i realised that its not that they cant sing, its just that they think that they have no courage to sing in front of an audience...
After the event ended, we were told that we have 30 mins more to sing before the contractors keep the barang barang... and at that time, there wasnt many of us left. So when someone got started to sing, the song request keeps coming....and i am sure those who stayed behind really enjoyed the 30 mins...
Those words of encouragement which i said to my colleague to calm her nerves before her turn to sing really got me thinking. How is it that i can encourage people so easily but not myself? Why is it that i still dont have the courage to do certain things even though i know its not that difficult a task?...And that it doesnt matter what the outcome would be, because you already succeed as long as you are willing to give it a try...And i am not just referring to the karaoke competition...I am referring to my greatest fear, which this thing to many people its so natural, so easy, so enjoyable...but to me this fear keeps lingering...maybe i really complicate matters by thinking too much...
"Northeast Line": You still owe me a "为你我受冷风吹"...haha..
Yesterday was the anniversary night of my company which was held in a multi-purpose hall, which i find most fun & though provoking was the karaoke competition. Maybe to some people, the whole event seems to be quite boring & a waste of time, but not to me. I am glad that i attended it....because you will only enjoy it if and only if you allow yourself to enjoy it.
Initially the signing-up of the karaoke competition was quite lukewarm, to the extent that the organisers have to resort to arrowing people for it. At the end of it, i realised that its not that they cant sing, its just that they think that they have no courage to sing in front of an audience...
After the event ended, we were told that we have 30 mins more to sing before the contractors keep the barang barang... and at that time, there wasnt many of us left. So when someone got started to sing, the song request keeps coming....and i am sure those who stayed behind really enjoyed the 30 mins...
Those words of encouragement which i said to my colleague to calm her nerves before her turn to sing really got me thinking. How is it that i can encourage people so easily but not myself? Why is it that i still dont have the courage to do certain things even though i know its not that difficult a task?...And that it doesnt matter what the outcome would be, because you already succeed as long as you are willing to give it a try...And i am not just referring to the karaoke competition...I am referring to my greatest fear, which this thing to many people its so natural, so easy, so enjoyable...but to me this fear keeps lingering...maybe i really complicate matters by thinking too much...
"Northeast Line": You still owe me a "为你我受冷风吹"...haha..
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Happy Valentine Day....
Just 4 more days to that day...that day which i really believe its over-hype...that day which probably creates the biggest divide / segregation over the have & the have-nots...
I am thinking of buying gift, but somehow i really dont have a clue what i should get. Like what 'cheekbone' told me, 'if that person likes you, even if you just give her a handmade gift, she will like' . Very true... but somehow giving a person a gift on v-day doesnt neccessary equate to liking her rite...it could plainly be some platonic friendship...('jade orchid' strongly disputes this point though...)...hopefully not all girls feel that way..
Finally the cold war ended... yeah...looks like i am right to give myself and others a 2 weeks cooling off period.....
Someone asked me this question via sms' why suddenly we will have constant messages?...Sorry i getting afraid as i do not know why. I afraid that one day you will just go mia, we will be like strangers when we see each other'... I really dont know what gave her this insecurity or this doubt...And after i replied her, i get a feeling that she is distancing herself from me...This is so similar to what happened between me and 'instant mee'...a feeling of nostalgic...i really dont want that incident to happen again....but i guess it will happen...but this time, i am sure i know how to handle this...
Happy Valentine Day!
I am thinking of buying gift, but somehow i really dont have a clue what i should get. Like what 'cheekbone' told me, 'if that person likes you, even if you just give her a handmade gift, she will like' . Very true... but somehow giving a person a gift on v-day doesnt neccessary equate to liking her rite...it could plainly be some platonic friendship...('jade orchid' strongly disputes this point though...)...hopefully not all girls feel that way..
Finally the cold war ended... yeah...looks like i am right to give myself and others a 2 weeks cooling off period.....
Someone asked me this question via sms' why suddenly we will have constant messages?...Sorry i getting afraid as i do not know why. I afraid that one day you will just go mia, we will be like strangers when we see each other'... I really dont know what gave her this insecurity or this doubt...And after i replied her, i get a feeling that she is distancing herself from me...This is so similar to what happened between me and 'instant mee'...a feeling of nostalgic...i really dont want that incident to happen again....but i guess it will happen...but this time, i am sure i know how to handle this...
Happy Valentine Day!
Friday, January 23, 2009
The implications....
I had actually written something else instead of this sentence, but i decide to wait for two more weeks or so to see if anything has changed...looks like the BBQ and cycling and sitting at the beach had calmed me down a lot....
Thursday, January 15, 2009
why am I so angry???
The title speaks for itself. I am angry...yes...very angry. At who?...This i know...But at what in particular...I really have no idea..Somehow it makes me even more angry to justify or to rationalise what i am angry about..... To the extent that this makes me isolated from my colleagues who are also my good friends....which to me is a big consequence of my actions, of my anti-sociality... i can think of 101 ways in which he irritates me, in which i cant stand, in which i hope he dont even exist.,,but these are not why i get so angry (even though i force myself and "brokeback" to believe in)....Looks like only "jade orchid" managed to see through me & my frustrations...ya its true...guys are better at giving solutions and solving problems...girls are better at consoling and showing empathy and understanding of those feelings / emotional problems..
I am not the sort of person who can get angry for long. I am quite easy to be pleased... (try chocolate ice-creams)..and normally i would apologise to that person to break the ice (even though sometimes it backfires...)..
The conflict between me is at most a clash of opinions and working style. Pretty nothing much. Its not the first day i know him anyway. One of the reason why i flare up is because i dont want a repeat of the "LKK" incident (LKK is a person's name) where he questions everything...the rationale, the sanity, the alternatives... that i did...that i could do...( this reason is true)..another thing is the tone and the way he speaks...machiam like want to challenge me like that...like he's confirm right because he had discussed it many times with "snowman"... and if in the most unlikely event he's wrong...he would consult my superior...Which would result in a repeat of that "LKK" incident....Honestly, this would make me flare up, but it wouldnt have a lasting impact...
And a gossip. This one, i am afraid, "jade orchid" got the main point at what i am angry about. He just said it at the wrong time, at the wrong place, at the wrong occasion, at the wrong atmosphere. The gossip is nothing, because as "jade orchid" consoles, the main characters (me included) wouldnt care about that at all because there are far too many gossips going around (especially for those who are singles) and "her" being so pretty and easy-going, she wouldnt have minded it at all. It wouldnt have any effect on our friendship (whether the gossip is true or not)...Neither would this any future implications...because its just a rumour, a gossip.. And "jade orchid" is sure i knew of these also...hence this being a reason i flare up is a lie....
I am just very very afraid that what "jade orchid" diagnosed is correct....because if what she said its true..it explains everything totally...but i really dont want it to be true....because i know i cant accept the consequences of that being true...
I am contemplating whether to sms him to apologise to him...okay...if that license plate of that bus i am taking next is odd, i will apologise..if its even..then see how la....
I am not the sort of person who can get angry for long. I am quite easy to be pleased... (try chocolate ice-creams)..and normally i would apologise to that person to break the ice (even though sometimes it backfires...)..
The conflict between me is at most a clash of opinions and working style. Pretty nothing much. Its not the first day i know him anyway. One of the reason why i flare up is because i dont want a repeat of the "LKK" incident (LKK is a person's name) where he questions everything...the rationale, the sanity, the alternatives... that i did...that i could do...( this reason is true)..another thing is the tone and the way he speaks...machiam like want to challenge me like that...like he's confirm right because he had discussed it many times with "snowman"... and if in the most unlikely event he's wrong...he would consult my superior...Which would result in a repeat of that "LKK" incident....Honestly, this would make me flare up, but it wouldnt have a lasting impact...
And a gossip. This one, i am afraid, "jade orchid" got the main point at what i am angry about. He just said it at the wrong time, at the wrong place, at the wrong occasion, at the wrong atmosphere. The gossip is nothing, because as "jade orchid" consoles, the main characters (me included) wouldnt care about that at all because there are far too many gossips going around (especially for those who are singles) and "her" being so pretty and easy-going, she wouldnt have minded it at all. It wouldnt have any effect on our friendship (whether the gossip is true or not)...Neither would this any future implications...because its just a rumour, a gossip.. And "jade orchid" is sure i knew of these also...hence this being a reason i flare up is a lie....
I am just very very afraid that what "jade orchid" diagnosed is correct....because if what she said its true..it explains everything totally...but i really dont want it to be true....because i know i cant accept the consequences of that being true...
I am contemplating whether to sms him to apologise to him...okay...if that license plate of that bus i am taking next is odd, i will apologise..if its even..then see how la....
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