My bright red apple

In the space of one week, I had dinner with my jap 5 friends and my colleagues. Both yield different thoughts & feelings...but ultimately, they induce a thought-provoking question : How does my apple (now) compares with other bright red apples....(Maybe there is no basis for comparison at all)...

Dinner with Jap 5 people was over a steamboat, with "princess" & "rubbish bin" (among others) attending. Nothing much seems to have changed, just that my level of Japanese seems to be (no..its obviously) deteriorating drastically. "Princess" is still so pretty, "bitter gould" is still so bitter, "rubbish bin" is still so..well...i guess my nicknames for them are proven to be so apt...Really thanks a lot to "princess" who planned this outing by accomodating my confusing & erratic schedule...And everyone who turned up were obviously tired after working the whole week (except "baggy pants" who's enjoying himself these few months) but still took the trouble to come...But sadly..two person whom I really wanted to meet didnt turn up (actually its 3..but if she came, i think it might be quite awkward for her).."Rainie" pulled out at the last minute (so comforting that at least she still remembered my number), "instant mee" couldnt make it (according to "baggy pants")...Now i have been psycho-ing (i dont know if this word exists..but you get the meaning) "mercedez" to organise another outing..think he took the bait...haha..

Dinner with my colleagues was over a a-la-carte (is it pronounced as ah-la-card?) buffet at a hotel. Nice ambience (in sociology terms), but the food is not totally to my apetite. Still prefer steamboat or BBQ though..."Snowman", "fake sister", "brokeback mountain" (among others) were there too... I used to think that there's an invisible boundary restricting colleagues from becoming friends..be it due to conflict of interest or competition or office politics..(to me, it still exists)..But probably not between "Snowman", "Brokeback mountain" and me..why?...Maybe its because our interpretation of certain things / events are similar...Or perhaps our personality are quite similar....Or... I also dont know...

"Princess" commented that 'the best thing about her job is that everyone outside thinks that hers' a very good company'. I guess it holds for everyone. Because no one will know that a bright red apple is full of worms unless he/she takes a bite. (Probably i should add that no one cares about the worms unless he / she is forced to eat it)..The number of worms vary, according to many factors like preference, experience, adaptability and age..(maybe the older you become, the lesser worms you see..or the older you become...you are immune to the worms)... But nonetheless...every apple has their fair share of worms...at least my apple juice seems juicer than theirs i think....